I’m writing this on day 2 of a flare up with a skin rash that I encounter from time to time, which generally erupts due to emotional triggers on my part. This time however, I’m not so sure what is sponsoring this occurrence.
Is it finally being loved for who I am and not for who someone wants me to be?
While this is stirring my soul, I suspect the emotional cause lies in the root cause of where I am at with my financial affairs, my business and a seeming in ability to attract money.
A challenging relationship with money is something that has been a life long occurrence for me. Firstly with growing up poor in government housing, then living a life that is by all means comfortable, yet one that was created very much with a lack of mentality where all that I experienced was near enough but still short of what I truly desired. No matter whether it was houses, furniture, cars or the goals I worked hard to achieve with my business this was how it was. Near enough had to be good enough. I am in the process of changing this, but boy is it slow going!
This week I have been confronted by watching someone close to me operate with a completely different mindset when it comes to how they spend money. Yes, they are budget conscious however they seek to have the best of what they desire. Good quality designer clothes, half price leather jackets that still equate to hundreds of dollars and business class airfares because they can. And who wouldn’t!
None of this excessive, nor are they rich or financially well off by any means. There is however something within all of this, that you and I can learn from.
Every purchase, every action sends a message to the Universe communicating what they deserve, and how they demand to be treated by the Universe. It says, when I need clothes, I do so in a way that truly reflects the fact that I treat myself with respect and abundance.
Being part of this over the course of the last couple of weeks has been confronting for me, even if I didn’t fully appreciate how much at the time. There were moments when I couldn’t comprehend myself spending the same amounts of money on designer clothes, but then the day spa experience I couldn’t happily get into and enjoy. LOL
Coming away though and looking in the mirror, I am left asking “What is it I still need to overcome to attract a regular, fully abundant flow of money that allows me financial freedom?”
And here it is.
Following is the transcript of inspiration and a soul conversation with my Higher Self as I asked the question and the answers flowed from within.
Higher Self (HS): Let go of needing it. Allow it to come to you.
Focus on the doing, the creating, the helping others and it will come. Channel your energies into putting good into the world and it will flow right back to you
You have exhibited high levels of trust and faith. This is no longer the challenge or the lesson. Now is the time to step on into the doing to create the shift. There is nothing in the way of this flow, only what you perceive to be in the way.
ME: One this that holds up my doing is a fear of failure. Spirit, as you know I have spent a lot of years exhausted and seeing little progress with minimal success. I am fearful of seeing similar results yet again while desiring different outcomes. How can I overcome this state of mind with your help?
HS: Slow and steady. This is something that is only going to go away over time by seeing those different results and this we understand. Be aware of when it immobilizes you and causes in action. At these times write, create and have fun.
Above all, have fun with all that you do in your business. Whether it be how you help people through courses or creating a product simply because it speaks to you. Enjoy it all and the flow will return. But first to generate an energetic return one must first put it out there and this is where you are at now.
As I came to move through this fear, I saw clearly how a simple purchase I made recently was limiting my wealth. During the week as a pick me up, I had bought a new handbag and wallet. Handbags are a secret fetish of mine and both were on special. The wallet was nice however I secretly coveted another that was soft leather, made by Colorado and to top it off was teal in color. It was however $100.00, an amount I am not accustomed to spending on a wallet.
Once I got home I found that the nice blue more affordable wallet had a problem. After adding coin and cards to it, you couldn’t do it up or close it. Making it ineffective. As I wrote this blog and processed all the fear I was sitting with, I came to see that the simple act of not honouring what I truly desired was holding up my connection to my money flow and all that was in my heart.
The big WOW factor hit home even further, when I realized that in holding myself back, in this moment had a bigger impact on my abundance than I first thought because the action was centered around my wallet. And what does your wallet represent? You probably don’t need me to tell you it holds your money and most things pertaining to operating your everyday financial matters. It’s the symbolic money house you have.
What a huge light bulb moment!
And then of course, it only took me another thought to realize how you feel about your wallet would speak volumes to the creation of your wealth. A wallet, I love because its my favourite color and feels deliciously soft and luxurious is going to generate a different creative energy to using a wallet that was nice but bought purely because it was on special.
Well you can guess, what I did the next day. I took the blue wallet back and upgraded to the wallet my heart really desired.
After sharing my story, I do want to ask you to take a moment and have a think about how you feel about your wallet?
Do you love it? Has it seen better days? How did it come to you? Do you want a new one? If so what would it look like?
What do you need to do with your wallet to create a new and prosperous relationship with it and in turn your connection to the wealth aspect of your life?
Now go out and get yourself a wallet that feels all that and drop me a picture of it on my facebook.
with love and gratitude,
Kerrie Wearing is an Intuitive Soul coach and Soul Whisperer with a passion to help spiritually motivated people manifest their dreams. Her work is designed to support people all over the world to engage the Magic of their Soul and manifest their dreams with JOY.
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Over the last 20years Kerrie has worked tirelessly in the spiritual fields seeing clients, conducting workshop and events, owning and operating The Australian College of Mediumship and inSpirit Magazine and is now honoured with clients from all over the world. Kerrie has published two books, A New Kind of Normal: Unlock the Medium Within and Wisdom of the Soul: How to live life created with love & inspiration and she is currently writing her third book.
Kerrie lives in Sydney, Australia with her family and is a not so secret country music fan.